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Her Name Was Caren "In Memory of Caren A. Campbell"

It’s been said that once in a life time you meet someone that truly captures your heart. Well I met that someone, only to lose her in a tragic heartbreaking ending. Someone, that changed my life forever. Always the skeptic I would have never dreamed in a million years that those words “I Love You” could mean so much, and yet be so painful, almost too much to bare. We’ve all heard the old saying I think about you every day, every moment of each day. Well, it has now been almost 1 year to the day Caren committed suicide due to severe depression. Not a single day has past or night gone by where I have not missed you. There are no answers, there are no words to be spoken. Through it all you realize that you can’t blame yourself and that life goes on. Somewhere inside of you, you know that loved one would want nothing more than for you carry on. Remember the loving times you both shared together. To remember them with joy, happiness and always know that they will be with you in spirit. I’ll always miss Caren and wonder what life would have been like had she lived. A small part of me will always blame myself for not knowing the signs, understanding the illness, saving Caren from what was to come. I’ll never forget the smile, her laugh, her gentleness. I still look to the sky at night and search for that 1 star we so many times would go out to gaze at. Every now and then I shade a tear that bares so much sorry, pain and hurt. But I’m learning to move on. Learning to be strong. Close my eyes and image the two of us together. Thanks Caren for all that you gave me. You will never be forgotten. Thanks for allowing me to fall in love. To know what it was like to love someone so wonderful. I will always miss you Caren and no matter what I go through I know you’ll be somewhere near. Rest in peace sweetheart and know that I’m still missing you, still learning to live without you. Until We Meet Again, D

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